R.I.P GRANDMA

Hey you 😊

I hope you are keeping safe in the midst of this global pandemic, may God protect and keep you during this unbelievable season.

It’s been a while since I blogged, well, over a year actually… life got very busy and I was unable to make time for a blog post. I’m going to try my best to post as often as I can and keep you informed on areas which I think you may appreciate.

Hmmm, so where do I start? 😔 I guess, I will begin with this statement.

The first step is to take one…

I want to take my first step as I return to blogging this year, by sharing with you a very personal experience. I still get really tearful when I think about her but I think I’m somewhat ready to speak about it alittle and sympathise with all who have lost a loved one – especially during this time as Covid-19 is stealing many precious lives. May every soul rest in peace 🙏🏽

Losing someone is the most painful thing ever. It’s a pain that can not be explained nor totally understood. It’s like a void, a vacuum, a deep pit which opens up suddenly within and just won’t go away. How do I even begin to explain it? I can’t really, words won’t be adequate.

Ok, so here’s the story.. Oh God, help me write this. 😭

On the 11th November 2019, I lost my grandma. Yes, I did. She passed away. According to the autopsy report, it was a natural death. She didn’t suffer. She just passed away… Honestly, saying those words gives me chills and brings tears to my eyes.

She was more than a grandma you know, so much more. She was my prayer warrior and counsellor, dancing partner, movie night buddy and best friend.

Her sense of humour, smile and distinctive laugh, which echoed through the hallway, was music to my eyes. Her laugh was special, it was contagious and made every dark cloud go away. I have so many beautiful memories of her that will remain with me forever.

Me at 21… graduating with my 1st degree. Mum on the left, grandma on the right.

She was really big on education. She wanted me to go all the way. She would say, “Education is everything” and yes, she was right. Thank you for always telling me the truth, even if it got me in my feelings.

Her words of wisdom and advice was 2nd to none. She poured out everything she had and gave me everything I needed. She loved hard. What a superwoman, what a grandma.

Death is not the opposite of life but apart of it…

This was most definitely the saddest day of my life. A day full of sorrow and pain. On Friday 17th January 2020, grandma was laid to rest.

To be honest with you, it was a very surreal experience. I knew that she was gone but my mind and heart couldn’t accept it. I could still hear her voice and see her smiling. I could still see her beautiful dimples.

I guess, I would never really understand what I feel but one thing I do know is her endless love, extreme selflessness and immeasurable sacrifice for her family will never be forgotten. She definitely left this impression and print in my heart and I will grow old with the life lessons she gave me.

She is with her God now.

At the end of every conversation she would say “goodbye darling” and I now respond with a heavy heart, “goodbye, until we meet again grandma, rest in perfect peace”

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Oh wow – I got through it! I didn’t think I could but I did. Thank you Lord. I will keep this one relativity short, it’s still really hard to talk about it but I hope it’s a good read.

If you have lost a loved one, I sympathise with you and I’m very very sorry for your loss. There are no words I can say that will ever be enough. In time, the pain becomes manageable. Your memory of them will live in your heart forever and that’s such a blessing.

As a believer in Jesus Christ, I am comforted knowing that I will see her again, this is promised in his word, the Bible and I believe it with all my heart.

This promise is available to you too, in Christ Jesus.

Death is not the opposite of life but apart of it…

Be encouraged and live again, your loved one would have not only wanted you to but would have demanded it.

I hope you enjoyed this post, let me know your thoughts in the comments section. I will post again very soon!

Until then check out some of my previous posts here 🤗

Shout out to a good friend Will Amofa, you rock!

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